Emotional Rollercoaster

I have been like this for the past few months. I am always at my lowest when I am alone.

Sometimes I wish I have better control of my feelings.

I have always love myself more than anything else.

But these few months, my love for myself has reduced and is being transferred to someone else.

So much that it occupies every inch of my mind and soul.

This is the first time ever that I kept thinking and trying and hoping

even imagining what would it be like to fit that into my future.

Will we still be in love after 10 years?

Is there a chance that we will be like any couple to grow old happily together?

I can't help but hoping that I can use all my wishes in my life to make that come true.