Jogging

I shouldn't be blogging now, having psychiatric exam tomorrow, just thought I should just drop a few words.
I was jogging peacefully with K this morning following the plan of me waking up in the morning in time. Jog, Jog, jog. Today I've decided running an extra run, so I went ahead without K. N guess what, run run run, there were 2 macho idiots apparently imitating my move.(I don't know how I look from the back). Anyway, my knight and shining armor came into place( ok, maybe that's not the correct term for K, he's after all, my good friend) gave them the death glare with his big eyes and white teeth and they ran off.
Can't any girl jog in peace anymore? :(

Back to identifying my defense mechanism.

Economical crisis

Where's all my money? I'll bet this is a question practically everyone(non-including those bungalow staying, LV buying people) asks them self.
I haven't been buying anything. Most of my money have been spent on the dermatologist( 1 more month of oratane to go), the rent, the books, the electricity. Well, everyone has to spend those money right? I have pocket money from my parents, I am working part time. I am supposed to be rich. Unfortunately, my bank account is always on the negative side. No savings. So I had to say bye bye to rock climbing shoes, bye bye to new yoga mat(which reminds me the mat that is originally pink already has 2 huge white patches), bye bye to visiting my dear in Japan this August.
Wish I am rich

Feeling scared for the first time

This may be the first ever time I will feel lonely in my life. Sigh. I've never been so afraid of loneliness before. In fact, I always welcomed loneliness, to sort out my thoughts, to get things done. I've never thought I would be afraid before. Now, for the very first time, my boyfriend, whom i've been seeing for almost 5 years, will be leaving me, Malaysia and his family to Japan to pursue his studies. In Japan. For 1 whole year i won't be seeing him, won't be holding him. I don't know what am I going to do as he is my soul mate, best friend, and the person I love most after my family.

I will stand up tall and try my very best to welcome this challenge.

I can't wait for this week to end. finishing my exam, seeing my dear for the last time this year. Separation is hard.

Sleeping disorder/ laziness disorder??

I woke up at 12 today. Is that even possible in clinical school? I am just plain lazy. Seriously. I have been having trouble getting up in the morning to go to the wards. Am in psychiatric posting now. I just cannot seem to find the urge to get up when there's no class. Oh and my pink alarm clock died today, had to replace the battery.

Okay, just an account of what an uneventful day today was, I went to class at 2 pm, learned stuff, and then went home, watch american idol the top 13, adam lambert was and will be great. Did my yoga then when it stopped raining went for a jog at Taman Tasik Seremban. Guess what happened. I was walking peacefully, choosing a song to hear from my phone and then suddenly this malay guy in his 30s started talking to me. Apparently he thought I was a malay, and kept repeating that if i were a malay he will 'kacau' me. I was just having normal conversations like a normal person, then i started jogging, then he caught up with me and after 3 rounds he seemed exhausted and hence went off and I thought I was safe. After finishing another round I headed back to my car. Guess what, he and his friend was standing near my car!(BTW, my dad got me a car, the new proton saga, manual, LOVE IT, am so glad to have a car and stop depending on others) ANyway, I was a bit afraid, and I walked away as I didn't want those guys to know what car am I driving. It was infuriating as he kept calling me and I walk walk walk to A&W. Called Kajen in hope that he can pick me up ...I did contemplated walking back to the car but it was really getting dark and if something were to happen to me no one would see it. Thank god Kajen came and drove me to the car. Thank god for that. I will have to make sure I come earlier for jogging and hopefully with a partner. Getting back to studying