Monday, March 26, 2012
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Gosh
Somehow I'm enduring this. Of course the source of the pain will automatically say that is my own damn fault and I told you so.
No regrets. A person with no regrets will repeat mistakes I guess.
I am sad. How could someone be like this. Why make someone fall in love with you and then leave ? Why? I have to pick up the pieces on my own. And when this is being said, still it somehow becomes my fault. I am too dumb. I fell in love to easily. I fell in love with the wrong person and until now I still cannot let go. And also, that's my own fault.
Why did this happen? What happen to the guys in the world. Why do u do that ? The funniest is, why did I let you do that to me? I should hate you. I should despise you. For not even having an inch of guilt, and still making me feel like its my own damn fault.
My own fault for taking everything you did in the beginning so seriously. For thinking that I actually meant something to you. Or maybe it did. But that feeling just dont last for you. Maybe you feel the same way about every other girl that you dated for only a few months. Then later you just get annoyed.
My heart is sad. Why is the person that I love like that ?
Even being friends, I couldn't whine about my biggest sadness currently. A goal that I have been working towards for the last 4 years. Now is the time and everything, money, time and effort has all dissolved in the air. Just like that. And it was just the second time I have whined and already I was being scolded.
I'm just a sucky person that I can't even complain about my failures. I can't complain to my parents cos I just felt so guilty though my mom has been really understanding.
Am losing faith.
No regrets. A person with no regrets will repeat mistakes I guess.
I am sad. How could someone be like this. Why make someone fall in love with you and then leave ? Why? I have to pick up the pieces on my own. And when this is being said, still it somehow becomes my fault. I am too dumb. I fell in love to easily. I fell in love with the wrong person and until now I still cannot let go. And also, that's my own fault.
Why did this happen? What happen to the guys in the world. Why do u do that ? The funniest is, why did I let you do that to me? I should hate you. I should despise you. For not even having an inch of guilt, and still making me feel like its my own damn fault.
My own fault for taking everything you did in the beginning so seriously. For thinking that I actually meant something to you. Or maybe it did. But that feeling just dont last for you. Maybe you feel the same way about every other girl that you dated for only a few months. Then later you just get annoyed.
My heart is sad. Why is the person that I love like that ?
Even being friends, I couldn't whine about my biggest sadness currently. A goal that I have been working towards for the last 4 years. Now is the time and everything, money, time and effort has all dissolved in the air. Just like that. And it was just the second time I have whined and already I was being scolded.
I'm just a sucky person that I can't even complain about my failures. I can't complain to my parents cos I just felt so guilty though my mom has been really understanding.
Am losing faith.
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