Blessing in disguise.

I just know.. All these things that happened.. It has to be a blessing in disguise. It has to be. All these pain has to worth something.

This feeling

This feeling.. Hopefully it'll go away. Before it completely shatters my self confidence. It is reducing day by day. And I am allowing myself to be treated like this because I am blinded.

Please show me the way.

I think it is a test. To test my endurance, and mental and emotional capability to accept whatever shit I get and still smile and love. Maybe it is a preparation for me. To cope with knowing that the most important person to me couldn't care less about what happens to me. Or isn't able to care. Or whatever.

Crying to sleep seem to be the way to fall asleep these days.

Outings

So fun going out for outings. Me? I'm just here in the corner. Existence seem so insignificant now. Seem like I hv been totally forgotten. Y_Y. Why are you so stupid??.. Stupid stupid glowing wine. You're the stupidest person I've ever met

Endless Love

Give me one last smile. will you?
As you know, tears aren't antidote
Worried that you'll have to walk alone in the future
Love becomes a vast sky till eternity
The world will come to an end but we can always look back and be more gentle
Able to speak out innumerable words
Frowning but eventually have to let go

Forget about the uncalled for guilt
it's sufficient to remember that you have loved before
there is no never ending wish for one person has always to leave first
forget about the time of falters but do not forget that tears will not flow in vain
there is no never ending possession, but the cherishing memory in your heart
Finally it will become eternity

Can't wait

I really, really, really can't wait

7 more days..

My heart is heavy.

A song from the past and present

新不了情
心若倦了,
xin ruo juan le
If your heart is weary,
泪也乾了,
lei ye gan le
And your tears are all dried up.
这份心情,
zhe fen xin qing
This feeling,
难舍难了。
nan she nan liao
Is hard to relinquish or forget.
曾经拥有,
ceng jing yong you
I once used to have,
天荒地老,
tian huang di lao
All the time in the world.
已不见你,
yi bu jian ni
But I haven’t seen you,
暮暮与朝朝。
mu mu yu chao chao
For many nights and many days.
这一份情,
zhe yi fen qing
This love,
永远难了,
Is forever difficult to resolve.
愿来生还能,
yuan lai sheng hai neng
I hope in our afterlife,
再度拥抱。
zai du yong bao
We can embrace again.
爱一个人,
ai yi ge ren
Loving someone,
如何斯守到老,
ru he si shou dao lao
How do you remain faithful till you’re old?
怎样面对一切,
zen yang mian dui yi qie
How do you face everything,
我不知道。
wo bu zhi dao
I do not know.
回忆过去,
hui yi guo qu
Reviewing the past,
痛苦的相思忘不了,
tong ku de si xiang wang bu liao
The painful memories are unforgettable.
为何你还来,
wei he ni hai lao
Why do you come then,
拨动我心跳。
bo dong wo xin tiao
To make my heart race.
爱你怎么能了,
ai ni zen me neng liao
How is it possible to stop loving you?
今夜的你应该明了,
jin ye de ni ying gai ming liao
Tonight, you should understand,
缘难了情难了。
yuan nan liao qing nan liao.
It is difficult to escape fate, just as it is difficult to dissolve love

i miss you

Again

4 more days

BROKE

i am officially broke for the next few months.


AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Another 8 more days?

It is bitter and sweet

Should i let the bitterness and sweetness go?

in 8 days?

:'(

:(

I really really wish i can talk to him right now.

I wish someone would understand how i feel right now. and say the right things.

9 days

Another 9 days.

Wish it would be longer.

My heart still aches.

I still hear those two words echoing in my brain at random times.

The words that I hope would be the most hurtful words I've ever heard.

Don't think I can handle anything even more hurtful than that

I know it'll all be okay at the end.

I know one day when these thoughts came back, I don't have to control my tears anymore because it will all be ok.

It will all be ok

It will all be ok.

Please be ok.

Aches and burns

My heart aches and burns

Only time can heal this wound.

Please let my broken heart be opened again.