My discipline?

I am seriously a worthless person. I am not able to get up on my own. I made my friend C wait for me and she missed the preparation of the patient before surgery. And I made 2 other friends wait for her too. Sigh. When am I going to be able to wake up on my own? The guilt is so strong.

Anyway, today was a really pathetic day. Learned a bit from the ward, realized I know zero anatomy, and have no friends to play my pathetic pool with. Oh and by the way, with my pathetic skills, I am apparently supposed to play pool in this coming Goodwill games(a friendly game between IMU bj and seremban).

And weather has been really irritating. It's so hot so hot so hot. How is anyone supposed to climb 4 floors everyday in this hot weather in the afternoon especially after lunch? Mind you, I am a frequent jogger, climber, and yogi. I can't imagine how anyone who don't exercise at all climb those stairs. Bless them, and me. Maybe my stamina is not as good as I thought after all. Y_Y

Another stress factor and sadness factor. I still did not hear from the Mount Sinai(which I had just found out days ago that it is pronounced as (Sainai and not sinai). Hmmmprrrh.. I am gonna make a fool out of myself. God knows how many other words I will be pronouncing in the wrong way. Should just keep my mouth shut until I am completely sure in the States. I should stop rambling and make inquiries at the post office.

Why am I not studying?

1st day in Ortho

Well...all I can say is, it's definitely a specialty that I would really consider, that is if I have the ability to study it of course.
Today's been a hectic day, from 8 am till 7 am, but it has been really interesting. I was really blur of course, didn't do much reading Y_Y.
I really hope to do well in this posting as well.. well i'll just let the photos and video speak for themselves:)
Really enjoyed putting on the cast, and also removing it... enjoyed using the saw.. hehehehehhe my knees were actually shaking while I was trying to saw JL's hand. I was really surprised that he allowed me to saw, but of course, I let him saw my cast too so..Chitra and me posing with our casts

Jen Lye and Kajen


Please ignore my shrill irritating voice :P

Breakfast

Went out breakfast with my far away boyfriend's mom and brothers. Mom's not happy. SIGH.
I love my mom very much. I want her to be happy. I don't know what to do.

Climbing

Went climbing today as usual, it was a last minute decision, as usual, minus my boyfriend, my dear Cody.
Sigh it's gonna take a long long time to get used to this.
Anyway, I was just there all alone, waiting for my turn for the autobelay( it's the climbing wall whereby you do not need a belayer to belay you)..there were a lot of children learning just now.
After that, I was contemplating to look at the climbing shoes, as I have been wanting to buy one long time ago, and stop renting from Camp5(the climbing place). I also realized that I couldn't' climb the walls above as I do not have a belayer.
Later I saw some of my friends, one of them from the Leo Club, T. I was glad to see her, at least I have some company. After that, I went and try on some shoes, and have decided that I really should buy. Sigh. This is serious retail therapy, I need therapy for my depression from adjustment disorder after my boyfriend left.
Well, I asked if I could get a discount, and naturally no, but I know the yoga teacher, and she can get some form of discount so I have decided to buy the more comfortable one, evolve
The box...
The shoe still in the box

The shoe

Comfy!!! much better than the saltic..

I am so happy that I finally bought a shoe after climbing for years....
I am in denial now, not checking my bank account... sigh talk about being Rebbecca Bloomwood.

Well, I am gonna go back chatting with Cody

Missing someone...

Cody was gone to Japan the day before yesterday night. As usual, in the car with his mom and his third brother... I was just sitting inside serenely, detached from my feelings. H(Cody's 3rd brother) was teasing as usual, saying me and his mom would cry like a baby. I told myself not to of course.

Arrived in the airport, I still feel calm, and told myself I am going to see my dear the next day on skype(thank god for internet). Did not cry at all at the airport, not even his mom, and we just went home.

Yesterday went to the child psychiatry clinic, a kind security guard has allowed me to park in this area at the side of the road( child psychiatry clinic was along Jalan Raja Muda Abdullah Aziz) as I was looking in desperation for a parking space, and probably pissed off a few staff nurses and specialists as I had accidentally turned into parking lots that only allowed cars that have staff pass to go in. Naturally I had to reverse into the busy main road and whoever is behind me had to reverse too.

Anyway, the day was uneventful, got the tickets to go watch David Archuleta, K was amazed by the good fortune of actually obtaining the tickets, I was just, as usual, detached from my feelings- I'm having some form of depersonalization. I don't feel excited at all... probably due to an adjustment disorder, obviously due to the temporary loss of C.

I don't have any mood to study, being online on skype for a long time waiting for C to go on, I fell asleep at 9 pm yesterday accidentally and got up at only 3 am. Then I realised i have numerous missed calls on my Skype. Sigh

Only managed to go online on MSN just 5 minutes ago, I had multiple messages from Cody, I was upset that we didn't meet at the same time, anyhow, I went and checked his newly started blog, saw his room and his problems, and started crying. I've been holding it inside for about 38 hours. Whooppeee.!