The over enthusiastic Ashthangi

2 days ago, I was supposed to studying for my Finals. Unfortunately, I was drawn to my facebook notification with the red pop up sign and started reading. Bye bye to books AGAIN

I was checking through my mails and decided to do the design of the programme booklet for the upcoming student conference. And I was so deeply in thought of doing the design that 4 hours had passed and it was 11pm! S*** Anyway it was a satisfying work.. but i got up from my chair and OUCH. I have backache. Hmm since that day I did not do any yoga as i accidentally fell asleep in the evening, I have decided to do it then. Backache still there. And I have decided to cut short the yoga practice and skip my shoulder stand and inversion.

Shoulder stand

Plough pose(Halasan)

After that I continued studying as I felt guilty. Only slept at 4 am

Next day... I was awakened by the shrill voice of my friend C. It's already 8.35am!!! And I was still dreaming. Thank god she woke me. That day back ache became worse. Did revision at school and came home with the hope of doing a better yoga and hopefully backache becomes better.

I started with my normal sun salutation A and B and all the 6 standing poses. And I felt so relaxed after that, I have decided to do a yin yoga the butterfly pose.

After being in that position for 1 minute.. i realised that i could almost touch the floor with my head. I was very, very happy and stayed there for 5 minutes. It's a great accomplishment!!!

Unfortunately...

After that, I want to finish off all the position, I realised I couldn't do halasan at all. once the knees reached above my face i experience an extreme pain at my lower back.

After that, i just stopped and finished with corpse pose

went jogging with CL(my house mate) and realised i couldn't really run due to the back ache

Backache remained the whole night. Until now.

I can't do the yoga just now as I couldn't even do a proper sun salutation and i walk like a pregnant lady.

Y_Y I miss yoga.

Weird Deals

I had a 3rd share of a weird deal making process today..

Weird Deal number 1

Labor Room

(Patient is having painful contractions, looking like she's going to deliver soon)

Medical Student: Staff nurse, staff nurse, boleh saya deliver kali ini? (smiling, innocent face was put on) {staff nurse, may i deliver this time around?}

Staff Nurse: Hah, you medical student ya.. aiyah you buat suction sajalah {Huh, you are a medical student right, just do suction la}

Medical Student: Harr.... aiyoh staff nurse, tolong bagi saya deliver lah...(sad face) . {aiyoh, staff nurse, please let me deliver..}

Staff Nurse: Hmmmm you pinjam saya kasut you, saya bagi u deliver lah. {Hmm.. why not you lend me your red shoes, then i'll let you deliver}

Medical Student: OK!

In the end, I did not deliver the baby as it was a difficult delivery. and i did not lend my shoe. The shoe, btw, is a crocs shoe that S, my good friend in New Zealand bought for me. It was really cheap, and I love it so much.

Weird Deal number 2

Labor room

(Patient is having painful contractions, also looks like she is about to deliver, unfortunately she is surrounded by, 1 Staff nurse, 1 student nurse, 2 house officer, 1 medical student. Hence medical student decided she should just observe)

Tagging House officer 1 : Eh staff nurse, medical student ini pandai main violin, dia ajar violin lah

Medical student : (looks mortified, try to open her small eyes big big)

Staff Nurse: (Just smiled)

Student Nurse: (Concentrating on waiting for the patient to have another contraction)

Tagging House officer 2: Acting like he is looking at the student nurse doing her work

Medical Student: House officer where got time to learn violin? You will need to buy a violin as well

discussion went on about how much does a class costs blah blah

Tagging House officer 1 : Why not I let you do more episiotomy repair while you teach me the violin with a discount?

Medical Student: errrrrrrr

Tagging House officer 1 : what is your number ah?

Medical student: uhhhhhhhhh ( at loss for words, look at staff nurse)

Staff nurse: (Her big eyes was opened widely, gave a look that says, what's with this house officer???)

Student nurse: (Still concentrating on contractions)

Tagging House officer 2: (Looks at medical student and then look away..)

Outcome: Medical student feels happy that someone asked for her number but unfortunately it was a tagging house officer who she has not interest in at all whatsoever

Weird Deal number 3

CSU rooms

(Practising to take blood culture in 5 minutes, room was filled with lots of medical students due to upcoming exams, another group was practising urinary catheterization)

Medical student 1 : (Doing a running commentary while doing the blood culture)

Medical student 2 : (from urinary catheterization group, look at cynthia and said, " Eh , can teach me urinary catheterization ah "

Cynthia : Huh? I don't think I know any better than you le.. Why not you ask XXX

Medical student 2 : Why not you teach me and I spend one night with you??

(Cynthia and open her small eyes big big and medical student 1 opened her big eyes big big)

Cynthia: I don't think so

Outcome: Cynthia feels weird, do I look that desperate?

Bitching Time..

I hate girls who struts and thinks that they are Oh-So Pretty.

I hate girls who can't drive and don't want to learn and expect GUYS to drive

I hate girls who say guys carrying a girl's handbag is not Manly

I hate girls who laugh with a stupid laugh and act stupid

I hate girls who put the female gender down. How come a girl cannot become a surgeon? How come a girl cannot have a big signature? How come a girl's driving MUST suck?

I hate girls who thinks that only guys can do heavy work. of course you can carry a chair

I HATE people who are sexist

Please kindly tell me if I possess any of those traits above.

Yoga

My new mission.. i will change my yoga practising time from 5.30 pm to 5.30 am. Please tell me it will work.

Distracted

I just kept looking at the laptop.. can't concentrate on studying.. aih..

Waking up early

I slept 11 hours today. Where is the stress of exam to stress me out of my sleep? Something is seriously wrong with me

12th OmegaKLCC Leo Club anniversary....

Theme: THE DARING DOZEN

Date: 25th July 2009, Saturday

Time: 7:30pm

Venue: Palate Palette, KL (near Changkat BB)

Price: RM75

Dress Code: Cocktail Attire

Theme Colour: Purple, Black, OR Gold

Below is our menu for the night, which we hope would justify for the (slightly) expensive pricing! >_<

SNACKS & STARTERS

Beef Bacon & Mushroom Quiche Tartlets

New Zealand Mussels Cocktail

SALAD

Zen Garden

Shrimp & Avocado Salad

SOUPS

Seafood Chowder

PASTAS & ENTREES

Pasta Primavera Marinara

Lamb & Onions

Asparagus & Smoked Chicken Penne

DESSERTS

Mini Chocolate Cheese Cake

Looks super, super yummy.. unfortunately I was supposed to be the emcee and also play the violin that night. I wish i had time for food.. gonna make sure sis keep food for me.. Seems there's always never ending performance that i hv to do during dinner time.. I am always eating leftover food during nice, formal dinner, or my food will be cleared out before i even smelled it. Hopefully this time it would be different. After all, I still had to pay RM 75..!

The dreaded day happened....

I was totally did not wake up on my exam day. Thank god K called me at 7.30 am when he saw the lecturer was there and i wasn't there. SIGH

I have no excuse for myself and i really cannot forgive myself.

Dr. S told and she was stern but she was ok. ...exam went ok as well..hmmm i would like to say i could have done better...all the questions she asked was all things that i have known..but have gone temporarily blank during exam. why does this happen?? WHy? Why?! ISH! geram saya

I really need to make sure i have a back up plan for the morning arousel. this is seriously getting bad.. I am really afraid what's gonna happen in the States.

Yoga Matt...

I seriously need a new yoga matt...

I am going to have my obstetrics exam in 6 hours time. And right now, I seriously do not know what else should i revise.

I just want to play my violin. currently working on Liebesleid by kreisler... It means love sorrow. beautiful beautiful song.

I just want to practice yoga. the pose that i really had no idea how to start is the marichyasana B. I just learnt it last sat!

there are just so many poses that I wanna improve on.

Wanna go for yoga class again this saturday but had to become the emcee for the leo club 11th/12th anniversary dinner(not sure which!)

Did i mention that i haven't been climbing for almost a month? my evolve shoes are lying at home in Kepong calling my name.

Sleep

I seriously need to go to bed. Seriously serious

New blog template

Finally i managed to change my blog template.

I should have been sleeping/studying. Sigh. nevertheless i feel quite happy about it hehehe

Boring life..

What happens when the most exciting conversations that lead you to have palpitations and butterflies in your stomach is not your loved one anymore?

Today...

I was on a real high today, was a great day at the hospital, a great day at the yoga place. I was so happy until i chat with someone. Sigh

Envy

Nothing to Envy

Because we want to keep it hidden, envy can be particularly difficult to deal with. How many of us are willing to cop to the heart-twisting feeling that pops up when a friend calls to tell you she's just received a fellowship, or the sense of injustice that clouds your first glimpse of your wealthy friend's fabulous new apartment? Envy so often looks like something else—resentment, perhaps, or a sense of dissatisfaction with your own life, your own income, your own family. For many people, envy simply merges with an overall feeling of not being quite good enough. Because envy is rooted in the feeling of lack or deficiency, the assumption that there's not enough to go around, its best antidotes will be practices that activate your own feelings of natural abundance. Forget about the person you envy. Forget about what she has that you wish were yours. Look instead at the energy that feeling is made of, and you'll notice that nothing in the feeling has any real solidity. Perhaps, at that moment, you might open to the insight that the energy forming and dissolving within your mind and heart is not really separate from the energy around you. Perhaps, at that moment, you might realize that the person you envy is not really someone separate from you; that you lack nothing because you are, at your deepest core, part of a vast field of energy that contains potentially everything you could ever want or need I want to be like that!

Exams..

I have obs exam next tuesday, mcq paeds mcq obs next thurs

and I am having my finals on the 11th August

right now..I want to do everything but study

I can't think.. and kept thinking about a particular person

Oh.. a bit of update on the sleep wake cycle.. have been getting better. i hope it remains that way.

i haven't properly plan to study for the finals.

there will be so many reports to write..and i haven't found a case report. or more like, the person whom i want to write the case report is only currently at her 32nd week of pregnancy and they will only induce the pregnancy at 34 weeks. and it is definitely WRONG for me to hope she'll deliver. hence, no good case to write

I don't understand why my batch always got stuck with IMU renovations. SIGh

Oh and today i was so tired, i slept in class, and then come back home and sleep again. sigh what the hell is wrong with me? i dind't exercise cos i was too tired. SIGH

House rent

I don't like collecting rent from people who don't pay on time.

I hate having to cover up when i had to explain to the owner.

Sigh

Delivering babies

Today i finally got the hang of delivering a baby and a placenta.

Delivered baby(assisted)-2

Delivered placenta- 4

I am so happy...even though many staff nurses said many things about me being an idiot for not knowing where certain things are place.. or how dumb am i to only examine 4 things from the placenta. What really made my day was when the staff nurse actually apologized to me.. apparently she raised her voice at me.. but honestly speaking.. i thought i deserved it as i was such an idiot... it was really, really nice of her.. it really makes me look forward to housemanship even though everyone is dreading it.. as long as you maintain your thick skin.. and never be afraid to ask the nurses no matter how much they patronize you by saying ' you are the doctor' im just the lowly nurse. we are in a different league. you should know what to do. Aih. But it is nurses like Staff nurse Z who will make me forget everything bad and remember all the good things

I know I will still have a lot to learn clinically especially from the nurses. I respect them as honestly speaking, they are the ones who really, REALLY care about sterility. Not the house officer or medical officer that i know, whom have studied thoroughly regarding nosocomial infections and how hard can it be to treat. In this case then, why the staff nurses are more concerned than the actually training/ practising doctors? I guess it is your own principle that you hold on to yourself. Whether you just wanna stitch up the wound and sleep, or you want to make sure that the patient is comfortable, maintain sterility.. and make sure you do less harm.

I know i'll probably regret this in 3 years time. but now i can't wait to become a house officer. getting scolded and learning. and making friends with all who have scolded me. I don't mind the amount of scolding as long as I learn. I'm a thick skinned person. At times, like this, it reminds me of my band instructor during secondary school. He can scold anyone, anybody relentlessly till you drop down your knees and cry. but i held my head high and took all his criticism. I am glad that i had undergone that prior training.

Anyway im gonna go pass out now