post break up

so apparently after not hearing from me for 5 days.. you decided to just break up with me

apparent schedule incompatibilities

no better explanation even

and after asking for more explanation, you threatened to block me

and then out of the blue

you just blocked me on fb too

I thought I have fear for marriage

but now..

I even have fear for relationships

someone could just come into your life, take your heart away, break it and just disappear.

I don't wanna give my heart away anymore.

maybe we'll be friends? you sound like I'm a little puppy dog waiting to be your friend.

You want my friendship? earn it. Good bye

just realised i could have let go 2 weeks ago

3 times

I've gone home

but u r still too busy to see me, not in KL

so which girl should I be?

The nice me : he is busy, I should be the understanding gf

The logical realistic me: fuck off man

The answer seemed so clear

and when I've decided to move on he comes creeping in.

oh I'm busy

and, oh

apparently me adding his friends on fb is checking on him

you know what? fine i'll delete the request

I don't give a shit anymore

I wanna stop thinking something is wrong with me

in my previous relationship, that guy, kept making me feel like everything was my fault.

now that i am out of it with a clear perspective, i am not sure how did i concluded that when we had arguments it was my fault

anyway, this is the last straw. am gonna stop making effort cos i've done enough, even came to a whole new level of pathetic i think

i deserve some respect

i'd rather be alone than be with someone who doesn't care, or love me, let alone respect me.

and btw p/s i wasn't even thinking that adding fb friends is a way of checkin on someone, that is not my style and seriously if you think so.. it freakin turns me off