The Life of an Unpredicted

I grew up watching the Hong Kong drama series. I remembered those days where my whole family would sit at 6 pm in the evening, watch 2 dramas for 2 hours and then have our dinner together. I remembered thinking about the dramas and discussing what's gonna happen next over dinner. At that time, I have always imagined, these are dramas. It'll probably not happen to me. Then again, when you see a couple in love on the dramas, there's always this wishful thinking hoping that it would happen to you too.

I have always known what is the right and wrong thing to do. Thanks to my parents who always gave me a hard time when I am about to do something wrong or already did something wrong. Then again, I guess sometimes certain things are meant to be done wrong. Never in my right mind have I ever thought that I would be drowning in this situation. It's like taking ice when you know how wrong it is when you are conscious. When you're intoxicated, you still continue even though the images of the consequence flashes in your mind. When you're back sober again, you remembered the great feeling that cancels out all the wrongs. Sigh.

Sorry for the lousy metaphor. I hadn't taken ice before so I don't really know what it feels like :P.

Semester Break

The past 3 weeks could have been the most unpredictable week of my life. Peds exam was okay.. Totally thought that I was going to fail because I have totally slacked and I have realized that zero information was stuck in my head after all the reading. Sad Huh. My pediatrics really sucked. Big time.

Hadn't been practicing yoga for a long, long time. I guess the true obstacle of the yoga practice has come, and I need to overcome it.

There's just so much to do during this holidays, which is ending soon by the way. And I am just so lazy. And so not motivated. Not to mention I hadn't finished any of the USMLE work. AT ALL. So many work pending but I am still slacking. Yet I felt so happy.

I have gone crazy I think :D

Karma

I have always believed in karma. I believe that, if you treat someone badly, for no specific reason, someone else will treat you bad.

I am talking about karma now because I am bored. Bored. BORED.

But I am not supposed to! Am in Pediatrics now and it is supposed to be one of my favorite rotations. Unfortunately, I did absolutely zero studying. I only like to play with the babies and kids. My brain is empty and all I can think about is, why am I not out on a date with somebody that I like???

The thing is, it's not like I have a lot of free time on my hands. I still have tons of stuff to study(which I kept putting off), I still have to submit my manuscript(which has zero progress), I am supposed to study for my USMLE(which I totally have zero confidence in), and I still have to work blah blah blah. There. Am complaining a whole lot again.

Back to the dating topic. Yes. I am desperate. Months ago, I had wished that someone would ask me out, and just have a good time.

Unfortunately... their behavior irked me. I know, I know. I am probably too fussy, but I can't go out with someone who kept repeating bad jokes that only they think is funny. Seriously. And I have to send heartbreaking sms that unfortunately, the person on the other side totally did not get. =.='

Anyhow, because of all the weird happenings around me recently, I have decided to take matters in my own hands and ask someone out. I thought karma is gonna say hello to me as I have turned down some fella's request.

Apparently not.

Sigh.

I should just chill and enjoy myself.