Cody was gone to Japan the day before yesterday night. As usual, in the car with his mom and his third brother... I was just sitting inside serenely, detached from my feelings. H(Cody's 3rd brother) was teasing as usual, saying me and his mom would cry like a baby. I told myself not to of course.
Arrived in the airport, I still feel calm, and told myself I am going to see my dear the next day on skype(thank god for internet). Did not cry at all at the airport, not even his mom, and we just went home.
Yesterday went to the child psychiatry clinic, a kind security guard has allowed me to park in this area at the side of the road( child psychiatry clinic was along Jalan Raja Muda Abdullah Aziz) as I was looking in desperation for a parking space, and probably pissed off a few staff nurses and specialists as I had accidentally turned into parking lots that only allowed cars that have staff pass to go in. Naturally I had to reverse into the busy main road and whoever is behind me had to reverse too.
Anyway, the day was uneventful, got the tickets to go watch David Archuleta, K was amazed by the good fortune of actually obtaining the tickets, I was just, as usual, detached from my feelings- I'm having some form of depersonalization. I don't feel excited at all... probably due to an adjustment disorder, obviously due to the temporary loss of C.
I don't have any mood to study, being online on skype for a long time waiting for C to go on, I fell asleep at 9 pm yesterday accidentally and got up at only 3 am. Then I realised i have numerous missed calls on my Skype. Sigh
Only managed to go online on MSN just 5 minutes ago, I had multiple messages from Cody, I was upset that we didn't meet at the same time, anyhow, I went and checked his newly started blog, saw his room and his problems, and started crying. I've been holding it inside for about 38 hours. Whooppeee.!
3 comments:
hey ling wei, LDR is really not easy...and the missing someone's part is the worse.
but look at the bright side. u both are lucky its only a yr and u guys must have faith k.
wish u all the best! :)
Thank you so much... thank god for skype though, can chat almost everyday without long phone bills...
yeah skype is really great! but the thing is that my internet here has a limit every month so i cant webcam as much as i'd like. but i guess just speaking without seeing the face is the next best thing.
anyway if we have faith, im sure we can do it! ^^
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