Is it worth it?

Is a 2 hour of pure happiness worth the longing, the pain and the crying ? Tonight I am the one alone and crying at home by myself.

I wish, someone could take the pain away. I wish, someone would dry my tears.

Is it because I have been always lucky, that this time around I have to feel this way to pay back?

Maybe what I did is so wrong, and I deserve to feel this way.