I slept crying and woke up crying.

No matter how much a person did to show you how much they love you, if at some point you are just not the number 1 person in their heart it just doesn't matter I think.

My parents have always tried putting me at their number 1. And I do appreciate that.

Why am I so in love with someone who could let me feel this way? Who could let me hurt so much?

I want to love someone, who would do anything in the world, anything at all, and everything he can to stop me from feeling this way. Have some courage to fight for me. Sigh. My head hurts.