Letter of Eligibility

Am going to have the exam for all my minor postings next coming Friday. Trust me, that is not even close to the real worries that I have right now.

Am still really highly stressed about not receiving my Letter of Eligibility now. Not even all the crazy dancing done yesterday give any help. I know I should stop worrying about it. but I really can't help thinking about it.

And I am now worrying about a lot of things, how to impress people so I could get a good letter of recommendation, how to finish reading the things needed for the electives and how am I going to pass the Step 2 CS, worried about how cold is it going to be in New York, and how am I going to manage.

Okay. After publishing this post, I will stop worrying, I will be confident, and do my best. Have faith in myself. Letter will come in time, I will be able to pass my minor posting exam, I will be able to pack everything without forgetting any, I will be able to withstand the cold weather, I will be able to study well, impress people, and pass my step 2 CS exam.

Sorry to the readers who has to listen to my self talk

Out of my mind

I have been acting out of my mind lately. I have been cyber stalking and phone stalking a person I barely know. I have been thinking about it over, and over again that I could go nuts. Today is the first day in 2 weeks i did not sent any freaky sms. Thank god.

Today was a really bad day. It started off bad. I was late again. woke up at 8.05 am class at 8 am. When will I ever learn I really do not know.

I want to be able to wake up myself. I don't want to trouble my friends to wake me. Why is this trivial matter so difficult for me? It is such a small problem!

This whole day i have been depressed for whatever reason I really don't know, there's nothing to be sad about. And to make things worse, I lost my pendrive.

To make things doubly worse, the starter for my room air cond spoiled after the thunderstorm. It was not cured by my ashtanga yoga except that I sweat more cos it was too hot.

To make matters even more, more worse, I just received an email from the New York Education Department saying that they did not receive the attachment I sent 2 weeks ago. =.=' . I was supposed to send them some files as it was required for me to obtain the letter of eligibility in order to do the elective in New York. I have sent them 5 emails in total to ask for the letter after sending the attachments. After 2 weeks and 5 emails only I was told that the attachment was not sent ( I checked my sent mails by the way and I DID send the files) SIGH. I have just tried my very best to attach the 3 files using the sucky internet connection here in Seremban. HOPEFULLY, the attachment arrives.

This day can't get any worse can it?

Mentally relaxed

I just realized that I haven't felt this relaxed since Bali. Immediately after the Semester 7 holidays, things have been moving and moving and moving non stop.

Finally I am now able to blog as I can't fall asleep now anyway.

First it was the successful 1st International Malaysian Medical Students' Conference held by IMU thanks to the great committee members. I really had fun and enjoyed myself and gained experience from the oral presentations. Pictures on fb(Facebook)

Second, after the rushed week in A n E plus all the things that I had to prepare for the US visa, an impromptu decision was made by my fellow housemate to go get our diving license. and Poof, one week of Hari Raya Hols passed by in Tioman and I am now an Open Water Scuba Diver! Can't wait to go diving again.. was told that I had to get proper lessons in swimming and hence immediately after coming back, I have registered myself to go learn swimming. three swimming lessons and I am loving it tremendously

Third, it was all the preparations of the poster for my research to be entered into the IMU research day Competition and also the oral presentations. That took a whole big chunk of time.

Also, the preparations for the Visa really did tire me mentally and took so much of my time. I am so, so glad that is finally done. I can now officially say that I can go to the States for my surgical elective! Still need to wait for one more letter though. But i am really glad everything is falling into place soon. Just that there's one problem. I am so not prepared still for the Step 2 CS

Anyway, after that it was the big 10th IMU anniversary celebration, as usual, I had to play my violin again.. was glad to do that and it was really great thanks to all my colleagues. Oh, and i was really happy too cos I'd won 2nd place in the oral presentation. That was really unexpected.

I think that's all for now. Gotta go to bed. Nite!

Fate

My life has always been always about fate. Had I never went teaching in that music school , I would not have met my bf.

Why does some confessions comes when my heart is most vulnerable? And the painful truth comes out from that confession.

Why do we both have to be online at that wee hours in the morning? Sigh and I still acted so nonchalant when i received that news!

Life is full of CRAP sometimes

Obstacles

I am now in the library of IMU Seremban waiting for a miracle to happen.

Sometimes, I know I am just too greedy and hope for too much good luck to happen to me in order to fulfil my life long dream of becoming a surgeon. It seems like I am always in a rush and I always forget to pay attention to minute details. That's what's wrong with me.

Hence, now I can just wait, wait and wait. Holidays are starting soon. I can't wait to explore the sea and go scuba diving. Most unfortunately I had to miss the black eyed peas concert. I really, really wanted to go. I know. I can't have everything.

Accident and Emergency

I definitely love this posting. I just went on-call just now and did another suturing again! yay. It was a scalp laceration wound and blood spilled like a fountain, i think an artery was ruptured. Anyway, I asked permission to try to suture it(seems that I have a lot of luck with scalp lacerations) initially it was too superficial and later on the house officer who gave me a chance to suture continued it. I did one final suture at the end once the bleeding stopped. Oh and I also gave local analgesics. Sigh, I am still really not good at it. My hands were trembling even though this is like the 4th time I am doing suturing! I really should have better control over my hands.

It is now almost 1 am. And I have not completed half of my to-do list. Not to mention studying as well. View of my to-do list:

1. write letter to AAD and prof K to explain my absenteesim in Family Medicine Posting next year

2. Call my cfcs patient(which I totally forgot)

3. Check hostels available in New York for my stay after the elective and selective to prepare for step 2 CS. Sigh i really hope i have a free place to crash. I can't imagine how much the hostels are going to cost me

4. Determine how to write the research paper for publishing

5. Find the syllabus for the step 2 CS

6. Find books to use for step 2 CS

7. Print my plane ticket

8. Study for my elective and selectives

9. Study ophthalmology

10. Study emergency med

11. do poster. due this friday.

=.= 3 minutes elapsed after writing out this list.

I can't believe that I was convinced that I had to go scuba diving next week. and apparently I was supposed to relax. In Tioman

I can't believe I always put myself in such situation. It's like an almost impossible to-do list to complete all before this weekend.

I don't wanna bring any books to Tioman. I just wanna go there, relax, do more serious yoga, maybe explore more poses. and of course, learn diving.

Oh, forgot to mention that I went climbing last Sat and guess who I saw? Jacklyn Victor! Actually I already saw her a couple of weeks ago while climbing, and I think I kinda stared rudely till she noticed. Cos I weren't sure if she's really Jacklyn Victor. Anyway, I took a photo with her. Did I mention how much I love her voice and her songs. It's just incredible.

Updates...

Gosh seems that I hadn't updated this blog for ages. Also, it seems that this blog only gets updated when I am having exam :/

Anyway, starting from after exams. Basically, than

k god luckily I passed my EOS 7. Really grateful and thankful for that.

Immediately after that, I went Bali with my family.. and I finally, finally learned how to surf. It is like, I paid RM 50 and the guy will teach and stand right next to me till I am able to stand on the board.

And this was the result :

falling off.. pic caught by my sister

Finally! The thrill of controlling the board with my feet. The thrill of people seeing me reaching the shore and jumping off. Can't describe it. I so have to go surfing again. Of course, I also injured my hand as I did a stupid thing by not handling the board well and it bang against me with the high wave in bali. :'(. Untill now still having pain in my metacarpals. Also, bruises everywhere on my knees and shin.

Other parts of bali are just simply indescribable with words. Pics available on FB.

Immediately after that, like a matter of 2 days, Ophthalmology( Eye) posting started. I was super duper confused with all the terms. And till now, I haven't properly sit down and study.

After that, comes the great MIMSC 2009(1st Malaysian International Medical Students' Conference). I was the subcommittee in Kajen's team.

Last thursday, we drove to Palace of the Golden Horses, the place we're staying throughout the conference. That night, we had this joint committee meeting and it only ended at 4 am. Sigh.

The next day, I got up at 7.45. Apparently C L woke me at 7.15 but I totally didn't know and woke at 7.45 with a start. THE BUS IS LEAVING AT 8 FOR THE KL TOUR! I just quickly got ready, had breakfast and ran down.

At the end, the bus left at 9. Some of the international delegates were late. Anyway, we visited Putrajaya, which was great for me cos i hadn't gone there before. After that, we went to the independence square, some batik place and the Royal Selangor pewter factor. After that, we went KLCC. By that time, it was already 3.30 pm and it was time to go back and get ready for the opening ceremony. Opening ceremony was held in Saloma restaurant. Again, photos will be uploaded in FB

The next day, was the scientific presentation where I was supposed to present my Wiki research paper. Which turned out really sucky i think. Aih, never mind, the experience was gained. Hopefully I learned my lesson.

That night was also the banquet dinner which Kajen has assigned me, LY and PF to organize. It was really cool, we got to use the walkie talkie and stuff. Anyway, i hoped everyone enjoyed the dinner. It was really great with the Lions dance and all the performance thanks to chester. Oh, and amazingly, I broke my new heels that night from running up and down with the high heels and cheongsam. and the worse, I had to perform with the violin on the stupid broken heels. I can't imagine how awkward i looked on stage. Hopefully the playing was ok.

After that, that night, we had to prepare the certificates for the participants to give to them the next day.

The next day was the workshop day.. which was also another rushed day. After the workshop and forum comes the closing ceremony. After that, it was the night tour around KL, which was kinda disappointing cos the tour guide just left us at bukit bintang to walk for 2 hours. :/. Nevertheless I had a really great time getting to know new people. Again, photos on FB heheh.

Sorry for such a long post