Dating 101

it's time for me to start appreciating my boyfriend so that I could stop contemplating all this boring pick up lines

after all the talks and stuff

what do you do?

sure thing they found out about my job

then it'll progress to.. i kept having this thing in my nose, i kept having headache and shoulder ache..  my sister has this, my friend has that.....


sigh


the other turn off..... i think you should settle for other specialty e.g. paediatrics or family medicine, you'll have more time for home and family.........-.-.-.-


glad my boyfriend doesn't do any of this

he'll probably think am an idiot for not seeing the doctor about my knee(which i still hadn't and this is the worse pain i have so far)

he'll also push me to study for my exam

he'll ask me to stop complaining and whining and do something more important lol


lol. sounds silly but I am in love though I kept getting annoyed when i don't hear from him

sigh

so apparently u don't give a shit that I'm going back to kl

:(

me

again i am back to this

Is it a me thing?

Or is just that I hadn't found the right guy?

Or am i just a dissatisfied brat?


I thought I have found the one

I thought I did

but right after he said those three words...

the texting became less

i felt neglected

and I've never realised, that having someone important to me to hold my hand became so important to how i feel.

I felt that he's embarrassed by me.

at the beginning, he said, i should tell him how I feel

but now whenever I did, it became a complaint, instead of an expression of how I feel

I became unsure of how he felt about me anymore

When i said i miss him.. answer is yes

it's only been 3 months now

I don't want to go out with someone who doesn't care about me

claims he does everytime i asked him

but why do i doubt it?

is it because he just doesn't and i couldn't feel it?

or he kept it so so so deep in his heart that i couldn't feel it

sigh

when am i going to stop complaining?

or when am i gonna meet someone to stop me doing that?

i should really study seriously

having an insight

I already know he's busy
I know am annoying
but still am expecting those texts
sigh.
when am i gonna learn?

The one...

I think.. I might have found you.... finally...:)

Psychotic

Am gonna stop it
Stop being psychotic
Believe in myself again
Stop being crazy

Alone

I feel so alone and lonely that I am delusional
It's so bad that I could just take a plane and meet a total stranger
I am so desperate that I actually think true love still exist
Am so pathetic that I even believe someone actually cares when the truth is that, he's just not that into me
And that hurts
:'(