remember the positive things

what he told me again?
focus on the goal
achieve it

it's that simple

Despite all the pain he's given me, somehow, talking to him today again makes me remember why i liked him in the first place

Why can't i do what i'm supposed to do?

i am supposed to study but am playing candy crush and watching movies

Am supposed to be NOT CLINGY and NOT desperate

but somehow, i became that crazy woman.

when am i going to learn my lesson

today i found out something honest

and to be honest, I was relieved

and it was funny.

thinking about all the torments i put myself through

why the hell did i waste so much time?

seriously. its funny now that i think about it

Just glad to be friends now. gained so much insight.

And i honestly, don't have that kind of energy in me to hate anyone. Despite how badly I was treated.

Trust me, I know how bad it was.

I just took it as, a learning experience. Meeting the bad guys, then you'll know who the good guys are

Then again. Why do i fall for the bad ones?

I know. The thrill of him doing something nice or saying something nice, which is out of the ordinary for him

Emotions

I have realised,

how much my own emotions have caused me unnecessary pain, tears

It is best to be emotionally distant

That's when Im more in control of when will I be happy.

Amazing

Violin

Missing the times when I used to teach the violin

baklanova

One of my favourite exam's song played by my talented student :)

Ahhhh missing those times

Back to the books and questions :'(

Hello stranger

It's been so long

Have been out of touch with my blog that I don't even remember the site name

I feel alone

Kinda loving my job now, though there are ups and downs

Have been working away from home now, kinda loving it, but missing home so much... especially saturday nights

Can't wait to be going home next week, but dreading the exam as am again, so unprepared :(

So many stuff on my plate now but I am just dragging out the time to get started

I just feel bored with my life I guess

Am in no place to complain but still, there's this hole in my heart

I'm supposed to be at the happiest time of my life.

Am not in a sad relationship, am free to go out anywhere, wherever I want. Am doing a job that I am interested in and working towards my goal

What else do I want?
Seriously

Where's my hot prince charming?

Him

I still can't believe you appear in my dream

Seems unbelievable

Happy to see and hear you are doing well

sad to hear that you don't want to have anything to do with me

and don't even want to be found by me

Sigh

another of those days

It's again, one of those days

in fact 2 of those days

or maybe even 3

since friday night.


And today looks like you've had enough of me

and looks like you couldn't take it anymore

of course, you'd say, its because I nag, and complain

but you and I both know deep down, that you're just tired of me. or maybe bored of me

I have been the same. Is just that, now, how I feel doesn't matter to you anymore

that hurts.

even though I had expected it, it didn't hurt any less