undecisive

i can't decide about bandung

i can't decide about which room to get

I'm feeling nervous about my decision to accept the offer

i'm feeling nervous about my mrcs part b results

fuck it

I did it again

i did the break up thing again :(

and turned it all over again

sigh

all he replied was a sweet message saying enjoying a few secs of wifi to send a bisou from Makassar, night bus booked for Toraja departing soon, bisons :-)

sigh

after all my ranting

I am happy he replied

But I am not happy that he ignored my discussion

Do i really want to invite this man to my life?

before i embark on the lifelong journey of becoming a surgeon?

R really did gave me a perspective. She told me he's being selfish. I realise how right she is

1036pm

when am i gonna stop feeling sorry for myself

why did u ask me to be your gf when you have absolutely no time for a relationship?

i am so sad :'(

the happiness was short

still sad

it's 10.16 pm
still nothing
i said good night

i am so sad

And i can't even cry

why didn't you try harder to see me?

:'(

what happened to my baby

what happened to him?

sad

He asked if Im still enjoying siem reap!

strange how a simple text fr him could cheer me up

he texted me first!

but.. i was kept on a waiting list to meet him today

it is 910 pm and he still hadn't asked me

I'm sad i can't see him today:'(

maybe he really does have a new gf
:(

pretty pretty please

i just realised i violated a rule for a good gf :(

i wish this time it'll  work out.. trying hard not to text...

Stop texting!

I seriously need to stop texting and pay more attention at work
stop complaining


Dear blog... i'll only complain to you and no one else. No one wants to listen to my stupid stories

Thank you .. sayang

Thank you sayang

Insight

Whats the point of having insight if I keep repeating the same mistakes over and over again?

Can I just have some self discipline and stop being such a ridiculous freak?

I know it's rude and ridiculous to continuously text someone

I've done it many times, and have driven people away

but still I do it.

And finally today he told me to stop

and I gave all the breakup talk and then regretted immediately

why do i do that?

sigh

My sister was right. Every couple is different. Some people are just not used to being constantly in touch all the time.

I became this psychotic person sometimes when I am not thinking straight and utter those horrible words. :( it happened again and again and again.

i took those words back, because I knew it was my fault

Hope it'll all be well

Next time. before I utter something on whatsapp I should just blog it out

and my stupid F******* landlord. Am so pissed with her. Insisting that she wants to come no matter how late even though i am super busy in this rotation. bugged me throughout my interview and entrance examination!

n now bugging me about electricity bill (i was giving her another tax bill but somehow the electricity bill got attached to that sigh) and now she thinks I hadn't paid the bill.

I have a feeling, that blithering idiot doesn't know online banking. Insisting that i should go to the payment counter and bring the bill to check.

AUNTIE hello, i have already told you that I am super busy, do you think i can go queue at the counter? i barely even have time to fix a time to meet up with you and the new tenants. smart people like us use online banking now. and you can call them to check your electricity bill , 24 hrs( very impressive SESCO! :) )

She kept going on and on how she should make the payment and if I want the bill to be deducted from my deposit. -.-

glad i found the snapshot of the receipt after making the payment

so angry with her... i hate to say this but,,, auntie... u better wish you'll never have a surgical problem

again and again

why do i have to keep complaining?

why do i have to keep repeating myself?

sigh

why r u with me really?