having an insight

I already know he's busy
I know am annoying
but still am expecting those texts
sigh.
when am i gonna learn?

The one...

I think.. I might have found you.... finally...:)

Psychotic

Am gonna stop it
Stop being psychotic
Believe in myself again
Stop being crazy

Alone

I feel so alone and lonely that I am delusional
It's so bad that I could just take a plane and meet a total stranger
I am so desperate that I actually think true love still exist
Am so pathetic that I even believe someone actually cares when the truth is that, he's just not that into me
And that hurts
:'(

Screwed up

Why do i keep screwing up things that matters to me?

i just realised that the relationship had stopped working two weeks into it

but now I'm still nursing the pain.

2 months for a 2 week relationship

sigh:(

that weren't all that great

Why can't i focus on things that matters?

I feel so alone now

:(

Relationship

Why did it only last two weeks ?

:'(

Why am I so impatient ?

Why can't I be a bit more chilled ?

Seriously

Chill out

Get a life

Huh?

You think you are falling in love?

Seriously?

Sigh. Why do all these guys just know the right thing to say just to make your heart stop?

Just remember.

Please protect my heart

Don't let it break into pieces after you've made me fall in love with you

Weird people

My house mate is asking about the smell that's coming from my room again

i lent him the perfumes that I have to show him

but it wasn't it

Am getting a bit freaked out

Strength

Give me strength and luck for the exam.

And the wisdom

Sigh

Crap.

Think I fell for him again

remember the positive things

what he told me again?
focus on the goal
achieve it

it's that simple

Despite all the pain he's given me, somehow, talking to him today again makes me remember why i liked him in the first place

Why can't i do what i'm supposed to do?

i am supposed to study but am playing candy crush and watching movies

Am supposed to be NOT CLINGY and NOT desperate

but somehow, i became that crazy woman.

when am i going to learn my lesson

today i found out something honest

and to be honest, I was relieved

and it was funny.

thinking about all the torments i put myself through

why the hell did i waste so much time?

seriously. its funny now that i think about it

Just glad to be friends now. gained so much insight.

And i honestly, don't have that kind of energy in me to hate anyone. Despite how badly I was treated.

Trust me, I know how bad it was.

I just took it as, a learning experience. Meeting the bad guys, then you'll know who the good guys are

Then again. Why do i fall for the bad ones?

I know. The thrill of him doing something nice or saying something nice, which is out of the ordinary for him

Emotions

I have realised,

how much my own emotions have caused me unnecessary pain, tears

It is best to be emotionally distant

That's when Im more in control of when will I be happy.

Amazing

Violin

Missing the times when I used to teach the violin

baklanova

One of my favourite exam's song played by my talented student :)

Ahhhh missing those times

Back to the books and questions :'(

Hello stranger

It's been so long

Have been out of touch with my blog that I don't even remember the site name

I feel alone

Kinda loving my job now, though there are ups and downs

Have been working away from home now, kinda loving it, but missing home so much... especially saturday nights

Can't wait to be going home next week, but dreading the exam as am again, so unprepared :(

So many stuff on my plate now but I am just dragging out the time to get started

I just feel bored with my life I guess

Am in no place to complain but still, there's this hole in my heart

I'm supposed to be at the happiest time of my life.

Am not in a sad relationship, am free to go out anywhere, wherever I want. Am doing a job that I am interested in and working towards my goal

What else do I want?
Seriously

Where's my hot prince charming?