:'(

How long am i gonna feel sad for?

melodramatic

can i just stop being so melodramatic and move on?

i want to look strong, feel strong, and not care at all about you since you broke my heart this way

so why now that you're gone, all i want to do is just book a flight and see you?

why is that?

I miss you so much...

The pain hadn't lessen. In fact it has increased as I have more time to think about it. I am fearing the days ahead. What's gonna happen to my heart. It is in my own hands right now but it feels so vulnerable still. Like a small single ordinary action could just rip my heart out.

Goodbye or a new beginning...

It happened today. Well.. It is as painful as I thought it would be.

There is a time where I can't imagine my life after today. How would it be. I am no longer crying my heart out but I am still having the choking sensation in my throat when I know I'm not able to see the person I wish to see anytime I want anymore.

The past few months have been so beautiful. I know it has to happen for the good for everyone. But I just.. I kept trying and trying to find a solution. To find an answers to ease my heart and make it better for everyone but I see no way except from me just being hurt on my own.

I am missing... So terribly badly right now. Don't know how the next few months is gonna be.