Unpredictable...

Today was a long busy day and also the last day that I am going to waste time putting another thought to the idiot who wasted all my years.

I never knew that I am so so so wrong all these years.

After the break up, and after knowing about the girlfriend and stuff, I was heartbroken but then again, i tried to be civil. I went and meet him to clarify stuff and even called once for a drink! He was the one asking to remain friends anyway.

Sure, lotsa people said I was desperate, but I just thought, I mean after 5 years, after a stupid online break up, you should think that ummm maybe a real breakup in person should be done? I mean, dude, I'm not even asking for a relationship again. Then again, it is probably karma.

The funniest part in this situation was, I was supposed to teach his brother violin today and miraculously he fetched his brother to my house for the class (Am pretty sure his mom forced him to). Even funnier was that, i was just opening the inside door, and zooommm the car flew off. I was like, wow, okay, after all this years, I didn't know the courage in that guy is as small as a mini pin stuck in a big body. Talk about being rude! First time I'm seeing a student's family member doing that.

Only one thing good came out from this time consuming ex relationship:

(1) I have more friends now (ex-bf's mom and ex-bf's brother)

The whole thing was just such a joke and a waste of time

Crappy blog template

Hate my blog template. What happened to Emily Autumn??? GGAAHHHHH

Low..

i can't believe i make myself stoop that low. How low can i go. I am such a blithering idiot man. I don't even have a reason to feel sad and yet i am feeling like a freakin sad person. SIGH

Happy Chinese New Year

Grey's anatomy

be inspired to face the impossible. god i love this quote

:(

will i ever stop feeling sad? everyday im just dragging this. i wish i could just concentrate on one thing and forget about the other. unfortunately that can only be a dream.

everyday i want to sleep more so that i'll dream of something happier to stop feeling sad but sometimes even this small wish cannot be fulfilled as i can't sleep

i am reminded of it every single time of the day.

Claypot rice

I used to eat claypot rice with a certain someone very often about a year ago. There is this one particular place we like to go and we only eat the claypot rice from there. We always call before going to make sure we didn't have to wait long when we are there. I always ordered extra salted fish and he will always order an extra egg.

Today after the pedicure, I should have been a bit happier. Went for pedi with my sister and we decided to eat claypot rice. I called to ask for 2 claypot rice, one salted fish for my sister and one salted fish+egg for myself(there goes my diet for a week :'(. Anyway, the moment i ordered that, the auntie actually said, the egg boy is back ??!!! I had to tell her we broke up. :'(.

:(

Another day, another rush of unhappiness.