Love life...

I have been together with my boyfriend for almost 4 years.. I just had a conversation about my boyfriend with my mom. Sigh. Yes i know she doesn't like him, but her reasoning for it is just so...i don't know, like his Zodiac sign, his family background( which she claimed she know nothing about and yet when i want to tell her she said she doesn't want to know) and she said other stuff that she cannot put a word to it. I mean, i could understand if you dislike a person's character, but zodiac sign? huh? and all this while i thought my mom wanted to convert to Christianity. I mean she will be the last person i would have thought of to tell me that i am not compatible with my boyfriend because he's a chinese tiger. I am not going to continue this blog

sale sale sale!!!!

I'm just thinking about my previous post.. i shouldn't have been so angry with my boyfriend.. he's going through a tough time.. sigh i should let him vent...but i can't help thinking that he is overdoing it... anyway viva results are out..and i don't have to take it thank god...now i'm even more afraid that i had to resit the exam..oh well, what's done is done.. went the curve shopping myself....and oh my, there were so many things on sale!!!! i finally bought another sports bra...don't have to keep wearing the same miserable piece again... also, finally bought 2 shirts that can be worn as formal wear to imu... i don't have any shirt at all since the start of imu until now, it's kinda weird, but i don't really like shirts see.. but i do need them in seremban, so it's time to buy.. it's so cheap, only rm 26 each after 50% discount..now i don't have to go see the g2000 sale anymore, i don't think it would be any good anyway. i also bought the sports bra and a shirt from nike. it's orange red in color, just matches the pink 3/4 pants i bought from zara last saturday. my, im becoming those girls that just blog about the stuff they buy :s... well, i want to do more aerobics more yoga and more yoga.. and study more of course.. but first i have to clear my clothes.. organize it well. oh yes and print some stuff...can't wait till friday where im gonna be finally free

huhhhhh

I am here..blogging after my exam like a loser... i'm broke and bored and still have a lot to do. why am i bored? sigh. I still have a room to clear, i have a lot to study, i have a lot of clothes to fold, a lot of floor to wipe. i shouldn't be feeling bored and down.
Tomorrow viva's results is coming out.. i felt rejected by my friends.. sigh i didn't wanna go to the penang trip because i seriiously have no money at all..
and now...im just thinking of going ice skating tomorrow by myself just to relax and i got scolded by my boyfriend. i mean what's his problem ???? i didn't wanna bother him because i know he has exam.. so just because he had exam i can't go out and enjoy myself???i seriously do not understand. i really hate this situation. i have no idea why is he mad at me. even this morning, i dunno what did i said but he was really really mad and i don't know why. he has exam fine. i mean who doesn't have exams????????? he's talking like he's the only one that has exam. huh? i have exams too ok.. i have been having a stiff 2 weeks of studying for exam. i want to relax for a while. is that so wrong? if i do not take a break, i would seriously commit suicide in the middle of studying for my usmle exam. i mean.. i have been studying morningn till night everyday for the past 2 months u know. why can't i have a break? pls tell me what i did wrong because i really had no idea.

I can't wait..

Completed ospe this morning...sigh that was a really, really sad exam. I am upset that i didn't go through some stuff in first aid that came out in the exam.. and im angry with the stupid answer that i put for the opacification on the x-ray..what the heck was i thinking? Sigh, in 5 minutes, when you can't think of anything you write you crap all the way and when the final bell rang, you just realised you have put the stupidest answer and the least possible diagnosis. SIGH. i don't even wanna say what diagnosis did i put..it was just too painfully stupid. Also, the cavernous sinus... sighh why didn't i remember clearly, if only i would have checked the first aid neurology the night before and not wasted the whole night trying to remember the stuff from webpath, MAYBE i could even salvage the paper!! i just really, really hope osce goes well tomorrow and that i can pass everything nicely without having to go for viva or resit. i just wanna pass this exam and quickly start studying for my usmle. im seriously quite pumped up now to study for it.. and i have no idea why i don't feel sleepy at all at this moment.. i should get up at 8.30 tomorrow morning. sigh. what the hell is wrong with me? ok..i seriously need to get some sleep. otherwise my brain won't function normally tomorrow.

Insomnia

I am now in a very not sleepy moment. dum-di-dum. hmmmmm wat can i do? i can't study anymore.. i know im going to get a headache soon...i need to go to bed but i can't...im just looking at the calender next to me.. i just realised it's the 29th already!!! My EOS 5 officially starts tomorrow. hm.. hmm. hmmmm. OKay.. check list of what i HAVE NOT done. I didn't do my head and neck muscles(again!). I didn't study the pelvic floor(hate that) I am seriously contemplating whether i should do it or not. Or should i just revise the First Aid from the beginning till the end tomorrow. What should i do? god i feel so restless... i really really want to pass the exam. i am not hoping of getting a better score. just wanna pass. mom sis and bro has already arrived in italy about 14 hours ago. I am so jealous..i really need a holiday...DUnno after this exam i will have much of a holiday or not.. but i will certainly try to relax and STUDY (as if tat's even remotely possible =.=... im still coming back to the topic..i can't sleep. period. what the hell am i supposed to do? boring boring boring

Sis and mom going to the airport

Sigh im so jealous! I wanna go for a holiday too. But im stuck here in malaysia and hv to study hard for my upcoming exam next monday. Boring boring boring boring

love??

Okay. I don’t understand myself. I absolutely cannot concentrate right now. I did not go through my lecture notes. Sigh. What am I going to do? I am absolutely in serious trouble. And I can’t stop thinking about having a new love in my life. I love Yi Lun. I really do but I don’t know why, probably from all the movies I have watched recently. Sigh which shows that I did not study as much as I was supposed to. I am afraid now. And I have no idea how am I going to face the coming exam. I just feel so frustrated and afraid that I can’t do well in the exam. I just really, really hope that I can pass the exam. What am I going to do? Even after reading the first-aid there are a couple of stuff that I can’t remember from the book and there’s also the fact that not all the topics are covered in the first aid book. I am too afraid to face lecture notes as there’s too many of them. I have only 5 days life and I have absolutely no idea what to do. Oh god. Oh god. I can’t concentrate, I can’t remember anything. I really hate myself. Why do I have to go and watch so many movies? During semester one this is what happened and look. Sigh. What’s wrong with my brain. I kkept thinking about all the love stories and I kept wondering if there’s more to my love life than this. Im just a horrible slut that wants more excitement in her love life then just the old boring stuff. i can’t believe im saying this. It’s not that my love for yi lun has died. It has not…I still love him more than ever but I just can’t help thinking what would it be like to be in love with somebody else. Ok. I need to get back to studying.