sigh

so apparently u don't give a shit that I'm going back to kl

:(

me

again i am back to this

Is it a me thing?

Or is just that I hadn't found the right guy?

Or am i just a dissatisfied brat?


I thought I have found the one

I thought I did

but right after he said those three words...

the texting became less

i felt neglected

and I've never realised, that having someone important to me to hold my hand became so important to how i feel.

I felt that he's embarrassed by me.

at the beginning, he said, i should tell him how I feel

but now whenever I did, it became a complaint, instead of an expression of how I feel

I became unsure of how he felt about me anymore

When i said i miss him.. answer is yes

it's only been 3 months now

I don't want to go out with someone who doesn't care about me

claims he does everytime i asked him

but why do i doubt it?

is it because he just doesn't and i couldn't feel it?

or he kept it so so so deep in his heart that i couldn't feel it

sigh

when am i going to stop complaining?

or when am i gonna meet someone to stop me doing that?

i should really study seriously

having an insight

I already know he's busy
I know am annoying
but still am expecting those texts
sigh.
when am i gonna learn?

The one...

I think.. I might have found you.... finally...:)

Psychotic

Am gonna stop it
Stop being psychotic
Believe in myself again
Stop being crazy

Alone

I feel so alone and lonely that I am delusional
It's so bad that I could just take a plane and meet a total stranger
I am so desperate that I actually think true love still exist
Am so pathetic that I even believe someone actually cares when the truth is that, he's just not that into me
And that hurts
:'(

Screwed up

Why do i keep screwing up things that matters to me?

i just realised that the relationship had stopped working two weeks into it

but now I'm still nursing the pain.

2 months for a 2 week relationship

sigh:(

that weren't all that great

Why can't i focus on things that matters?

I feel so alone now

:(