How much more happiness can be sucked out from me?

How much more disappointments can I take?

I am tired of being redundant

I wish something can be done

Persistence

Somehow some things just choose to remain that way even though the future looks bleak.

Somehow sometimes I don't know why, I just seem to swallow and tolerate whatever shit that was given to me.

What does it exactly mean when you meet someone that can alter your emotions so drastically based on a single action?

I really do wonder how certain stories will unfold. And I am really curious as to how this story would unfold itself. Of course, I already know the outcome. Just how it twists itself would be the interesting part.

I don't believe in praying but, I wish every single one of us, all the 4 person, would achieve effortless and eternal happiness.

Mornings..

Am always looking forward to waking up in the morning receiving your text msg.. :)

Am happy for the honesty you showed me

Am thankful for coming into my life and making it colorful. The dark and grey colors makes the bright ones even more brighter.

Thank you trying to make my grey days bright. You may not feel it's of any use, but it means everything to me. I just can't express it at that moment.

I have learned so much from you.

I hope the time stops at the moment we're together.

Another wave of sadness

:'(. Pictures like this make my heart ache

Holiday and Shopping

AAhhhhhh I am currently in London. Can't stop thinking of my beloved ones back home and also friends and colleague who are currently in Malacca having the induction and starting work real soon..

Anyway, just got back from a trip fully planned by my beloved sister which was fanttabulous!!!!! A-mazing. I saw so much, learnt so much, walked so much, aannnnnddddd SHOPPED so much!!!!!!

GOSH!!!

1. Countless tops (tops from H& M, Barcelona etc

2. 1 long champ handbag(proud of myself for only purchasing one bag so far hehehe!! :D)

3. 4 pair of shoes(1 wedge from ugg, 1 flats from zara, 1 heels from clarks, 1 heels from poetic license london- I think I have gone absolutely mad)

4. 3 dresses( 2 from H&M 1 from Morgan)

5. 1 pair of jeans

6. 3 perfumes(1 britney spears, 1 flora gucci, 1 bvlgari)

7. books from museums and gifts from museums

8. Countless shirts for souvenirs

I lost track of my accounts after the 3rd day here.

And I am gonna spend another 8 more days in LONDON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG~~~

Broke and unemployed.

OMG

I am seriously going absolutely crazy!!!!!

Sigh.

This all started last Monday(14/3). I sent my application for the certificate to practice medicine in the Mid Valley post office after meeting up with my friend DJ. I had all the certs signed and the application stamped and stuff. I had used the registered post service.

2 days later, I discovered that i did not send my bank draft!!! Left it in the printer where I am making a photocopy of it. Panicky, I have decided that I will send it by pos laju the next day.

18/3- i sent my bank draft along with all my photocopied application letters. This time I used the pos laju service and prayed hard. Initially I called the MMC(Malaysian Medical Council) to inform that I have forgotten to include my bank draft and that I had sent it. Naturally the lady was irritated with me. I tried calling the pos office to see if my original application had arrived and they told me that it'll only arrive on the 22nd of march :(. Fine.

I live in peace throughout the weekend and continue studying peacefully for my usmle

then comes 22/3. I called the post office to check if my registered post have arrive and that guy told me, it'll arrive within this week.. I was like .. WTF??? I sent my post last MONDAY!!! that was over a week ago!!! it is supposed to arrive within 3-5 working days. What the f******* hell is that? I gave it to the guy on the phone and demand that I need to know where my mail is. How can it be a registered post if the I can't be sure where my mail is??AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. He said he'll try to find out and will give me a reply within 3 LONG days.

Then comes 23/3. I called the post office but it was engaged. Hence I tried calling the MMC again. Now. she asked me to check with the arrivals of department to see if my letter has arrived. FIne. Called and said apparently it has arrived. Then I called the actual department and she told me the bank draft is here with all these photocopy. And she said that those cannot be processed and I will need to send in the original forms which, at that time I believe the post has not arrive. She told me to keep quiet at home and wait for her query letter asking where are my original forms and stop calling 10 times. (god she's a f******* B*****). Sigh.

Then, I received a call from the post office saying that the application has been sent and arrived at the MMC on the 18th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sigh. Do I call back the MMC again?